魏永勇呼吸菲林

我家有个不说出来的规矩
每逢清明
因为舅舅们都无法赶回来
于是人丁单薄
所以我一定是跟母亲两个人
去清洗公公和婆婆的坟墓

爷爷和奶奶的
老实说这些年来我都没去过
主要原因是因为
这些年来父亲和叔叔阿姨们
复杂的金钱纠纷所以关系闹得很僵
所以形成了某某人不见某某的局面

然后我有十多位叔叔伯伯和阿姨
再加上他们各自的家属
可以说是人力雄厚
他们喜欢狂烧纸钱来定夺
谁比较孝顺
所以竞争意味浓厚
母亲非常不喜欢
我也不喜欢
所以爷爷奶奶那边
始终都没去
也没担心过

一直到今早
本来胆小怕事的父亲
昨晚突然心血来潮
决定去看一看
我们才发现
爷爷和奶奶的坟墓
惨不忍睹
黑灰尘
层层掩盖了整个墓碑

父亲立即开始抱怨数落
其他兄弟姐妹的不是
又说改天找人来清洗
可是就站在原地没有丝毫行动

母亲与我
多年扫墓的经验
似乎有了共识
二话不说
我们动手了

顽固的灰尘
始终抵挡不了
尽孝的心
灰尘开始溶化

父亲的贵手
也加入了行列

本来只是想来走马观花
我们三个人把任务完成了
爷爷奶奶的坟墓
终于恢复了本来的面貌
像全新的一样

这还是第一次
我们三个人扫墓

爷爷奶奶
我答应
以后每逢清明
我也都会回来扫你们的墓

Bario

After five long years, once again I have returned to Bario…this place that I always called Home. I was so afraid that no one would still recognize me…that to them I am just one of those many tourists. But my heart was at peace when many people at the Pasar started to greet me warmly. To their amaze perhaps is how much weight I have lost. To my amaze obviously, how they still remember my name.

Bario remembers me.

I am not the same me who first explored this land many years ago. My return to Bario marked an important chapter in my life. A circle has been completed. I have returned to this place where I first started everything. Bario is a mirror. A checkpoint. To see where I was, where I am now and where I want to be in the future.

You don’t forget about a place like Bario. Like everyone here says…those who has visited Bario will always return.

Caused…Bario always remembers you.

It grows in you.

It stays in you.

BARIO

自从拍完了CHILDREN OF THE WIND后

已经很多年没回去了

有生之年

真的希望你们去一次

至少一次

这是一个人间天堂

这个地方会改变你一生

至少

BARIO彻底改变了我

三月十六号

事隔多年后

将会再次回BARIO做场地考察

预备四月中会开拍一部新的记录片

我回去还债

人情债

From 17th March onwards, I will be in Bario for a research and pre-production planning for a documentary project. This is my first return since 5 years ago when I did my first film in Sarawak. An emotional return I am sure for myself. Bario is a reality check. Personally, I have improved so much. I was not the same me when I first set my feet there few years ago. But I wonder will Bario remain the same as I remembered time and time again in my memory all these years? I will find up soon.

The mountains of Bario, the faces of the Kelabits, the melting rice with sweet pineapples, the crystal clear natural water, the soul cleansing fresh air, the whisper of the wind…please hug me tight…the return of a son…

你总是这样
突然来电
在古晋的机场过境的你
非得要见我不可
因为你知道
不管我再忙
我都会为你
放下手头上所有工作
去找你
你或许不一定真正了解我
可是我的弱点
你是了如指掌

点了杏仁滚蛋
我就知道你不会喝
到最后一定是与我交换饮料
所以我预先点了茉莉绿茶
这其实是为你点的

这是第二次见面
和上次一样
虽然事隔两年
我都把你给弄哭了

你长大了
当然除了胸部以外
或许成熟不是最佳的形容词
可是你的小孩子气
已经明显受到控制了
还是多看书吧
不然我也找不到其他方法
能让你看得比较有点气质

短短几个小时
能和你见面
我其实很开心
沙漠你自己去咯
可是年尾赴印度学医
才是你人生最大考验

你要加油
下次见面
我会期待

但要预先通知哦！

I have very low tolerance and extremely little patience on incompetence people. I simply refuse to believe that I am better, but I can’t deny, I am. A day has only 24 hours. It’s not to wait for the best moment but to make every moment best. Success is made and planned, not given or fallen from sky. When wanting to make the best out of everything, is considered as selfish, I find no strength to further explain. 

As such, when I do meet selfish people, I can fully understand and able to justify its notion and even emotion. Caused at least now, I find comfort and peace to admit it. To achieve success, often it is a long winding narrowing road that scares off many averagers. But to walk towards that road, one needs more than courage, but the ability and will, to stay lonely for the time being. Success can be a lonesome walk. Sweats and footsteps, shall company and mark my path. 

Those around me who can’t keep and cope up with me, time and myself, wait for no one. Catch me if you do. I shall always look back and smile and applauded your effort. And when you do catch me and even surpass me, I shall race with you to whatever ends. With joy and full respect.

For those who have made no step and attempt, stand at where you are. I shall feel no sorry to leave you behind. For we may come from the same place and even share the same sky for the same dream, but we may be heading towards totally aliened direction. Part with me. I bear and carry no more grudge.

Bye bye incompetence people! We must apart from each other. Irreconcilable and insurmountable differences are good enough reasons for our forever farewell.

古今中外

所有思考者

都是孤独的

孤独的开始是暴风雨

雨停息后是自我沉淀

沉淀是种平静的解脱

是深思考的首先条件

现今的社会已习惯通俗

而不再享受思考的乐趣

我不是孤独的思考者

但我早已习惯

思考的孤独

Shot end of last year. I hope you like it. Will also plan to do a screening together with my other shorts.